Things have been going on and I haven’t posted in while. That’s not really an excuse to not staying consistent but hey…it’s the truth.
There is a subject on my heart and very much part of my life that I feel it needs to be addressed. My ex even brought it to my attention (probably without wanting it) at one point.
In a previous post I talked a little bit about my cam modelling past. I’ve done it for 7 straight years. The number one reason for doing that was money. Looking back now – that is not a valid reason. There were ways to make money without degrading myself. To make matters worse, I somehow knew that. I’m doing now what I should have been doing back then. Now I am an affiliate marketer and I’m working on my own business and it’s going very well. In the past month and a half maybe 2, I’ve made more money than I did in 5 years of caming. Why didn’t I start sooner? I cannot answer that question. I don’t think it’s really relevant at this point now. What’s done cannot be undone but it doesn’t mean that my life is destroyed beyond repair. Things happen for a reason and somehow I think that the course of my life up until this point was suppose to be this way.
I could be standing here just as strong if it hadn’t been the way it was. In all honesty, I’m grateful. Now the point of this post is simple – cam modelling has to stop and I’ve made it a purpose of mine to make it stop. There is no difference between a prostitute who sells her body on the street corner and the prostitute who strips online and fingers herself or God knows what else. There is absolutely no difference. Why is it legal then? Because the porn industry is a multi-billion dollar empire but at what cost? This industry cripples people. Once you get in this vicious cycle, you can lose yourself. Going back to leading a normal life can be impossible. No matter who says what, it can become impossible for people to go back. Women and men get caught up in the “easy money” thing and forget how to lead a honest and fulfilled life. You don’t know how to do anything else or doing something else requires actual brain usage that – after a period of time of caming – you no longer see value in it. And this is only the financial aspect of this industry.
The main problem is actually the pain. Yes I made a lot of money caming – I’m not going to sit here and lie about it. I made serious money, but I had to pay a price – myself. Seven years of cam modelling became 7 years of pain on top of the pain I already had. Pain of degrading myself, pain of losing trust in people, pain of making the wrong choice, pain of not staying true to myself….pure pain and internal agony. My heart goes out to all the cam models out there, but at the same time I can’t help you. You have to help yourself and the first step is getting out and talking about it no matter what labels society will throw at you. Just get out! One more day spent there and it’s one more day when you sold a piece of your soul for a few bucks and it’s not worth it. You have kids to raise, bills to pay, debt etc. Guess what? I had to deal with that too. I lost pretty much everything at some point. I also have a child to raise. And it can be done without exposing myself or selling my soul. Anyone can do that, you just really have to want it.
No matter where you are in world and how hard things are in your country – selling your body is not the answer and it is a felony. Men paying you to do that are criminals too. Models sell the drug, men buy it. In most countries, drug possession and drug using is also a crime. So yes, you guys out there paying these women to strip and do things should be brought to justice as well. Even men who are there just viewing or talking or whatever else that some of then may classify as being innocent are also enablers and users and should be charged accordingly and I will fight for this even if that means that I will be incarcerated myself. I did what I did and I’m beyond ready to accept the consequences.
Most of the cam models in the industry see this industry as the only way to make a living. Like nothing else exists on this planet. Another thing pointed out to me is that people would have more respect for a woman who robbed a gas station instead of doing cam modelling. Dear human, I am sorry to have to disagree with you. Robbing a gas station is not an answer either. I know that some of the cam models do not have degrees or any type of diploma to help them get a good job. Let me tell you this – any job is better than this. I never relied solely on cam modelling. I mopped floors, was a waitress, a bartender, paper girl, worked at a fast food joint etc. and I wish I had stuck to just those.
Still, I don’t feel like I’ve wasted years because all the pain I went through has a purpose and I finally see that now. This gave me more power to face the facts, accept and move on from my past and try and do something about it.
I was a prostitute and you guys who are doing this are also prostitutes no matter how you try to sugar coat it. That’s the stone cold truth.
My name is Olga Iosub and I was a cam model. It will be a long ride, but it’s well worth it.