#outthem

So.. I posted a photo on Facebook sometime ago with me and my baby. Nothing special about it. All good till one dude decides it’s ok to post a comment that sounded something like this and I will not censor it – “I would fuck you so hard it’s not even funny. Is your pussy ready for me?”. Yeah…yes I know this dude. We actually went to college together and he never seemed to be THAT guy.

I immediately took a screenshot of that and posted it with the hashtag in the title. Not long after I get a message from him in which he called me out. We dude – you’re calling me out – I’m here to meet you! He said that he thought the comment wasn’t inappropriate in any way and that there is nothing wrong with him expressing his sexual attraction towards me. I told him that having a filter goes a long way and that I will not take own the screenshot. I don’t think I need to say what happened after I posted that. A lot of women posted screenshots of their experiences.

Ladies – this is not ok. If there is something I’ve learned in this life is to take no shit from anyone. I don’t care who it is. If you decide to be a shithead – be ready to take the consequences. Don’t expect to put your hand on the stove and not get burned amigo. If your mommy didn’t teach you how to behave, then I will and it will be a lesson you’ll never forget.

I got a little carried away and I sent that screenshot to his mother, sister, girlfriend, best friend, brother, grandmother…pretty much everyone that mattered in his list. What makes me damn proud of my girls is that they finally had the courage to not stay silent. Keeping quiet about this shit is pretty much saying that it’s ok when it’s not. Put it out there for everyone to see. Expose them and maybe, just maybe, one or two of these humanoids can be salvaged. Maybe one or two will learn something.

As a man – you should treat a woman the same way you would like your mother or daughter to be treated. Nothing less than that. We are not objects and we don’t have to put up with your crap in any way shape or form. So lose the entitlement and grow a pair of balls and act like a damn man. Nice guys don’t finish last!

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Life As A Single Parent – I

Ok, so as promised, every Tuesday from now on, I will be posting my thoughts, challenges, struggles and joys of being a single parent. Lets get into it.

Firstly, I became a single parent the second I found out I was pregnant. I carried the pregnancy without the father in the picture. That’s actually the moment I became a parent even though my baby was not yet born. I felt it was important for me to point that out because people think that parenting starts when the baby is born which is downright false. This journey starts the second you find out there’s a bun in the oven. It should be a happy moment, exciting, but it wasn’t like that for me.

I was terrified. I was scared down to my marrow. Not only because it was an unexpected pregnancy, but because I got left in the cold by the father with no explanation. I will not start bashing him or anything because there is no point in doing that. I’m just pointing out how I felt. I had no idea what I was doing. All I knew was to go to the doctor and do everything I was told. I started reading book after book on babies and parenting. I watched hours and hours of videos. In other words, I literally devoured every piece of information I could possibly get on pregnancy, child birth and parenting. It made me feel like I was progressing, like I was doing something for this baby.

Then I started shopping like crazy and I bought insane amounts of baby stuff and I ended up giving half of those away because I didn’t need all of them. To sum up, I became a maniac. Everything I was doing had a fear base. I was scared, I was emotionally stressed, I was struggling to maintain a facade in front of my family and friends, but inside I was going nuts.

Let me tell you this, everything I did was utterly useless because, the day my baby was born, everything I had read about didn’t apply. I realized I had bought stuff I didn’t need. I also realized that I GOT THIS. I instinctively knew what to do and ending each day with her sleeping peacefully, changed, fed and loved made me feel victorious. Sounds cheesy but it’s true.

My daughter doesn’t need a perfect mom. She needs a sane mom. My daughter needs to be loved and nurtured. She needs to know that I will always be there for her. She needs ME and I am enough for her.

That’s what our kids need. They need us as flawed as we are. Yes we will fuck up – royally at times – but as long as it comes from a place of love – everything can be repaired. Each day is a new start. Treat things like that and you’ll see a major difference in your parenting. And in those insanely frustrating moments when you have no idea what to do to get your baby to stop crying, when things seem like they’re falling apart and your entire world in crumbling – I want you to know this – NOTHING IS PERMANENT! Add “right now” to each sentence and you’ll understand what I’m saying. For example – “My baby is crying RIGHT NOW!”, “My house is messy RIGHT NOW!”, “Everything seems to be falling apart RIGHT NOW!” See what I mean? Circumstances are always changing which makes everything impossible to stand still. Therefor nothing is permanent so stop treating everything like it’s going to last forever. Trust me, your life will become much easier and you will be able to find joy again. That’s what’s important at the end of the day!

So love fiercely and remember that you too matter and everything will fall into place.

Till next Tuesday!

I’m A Fabulous Dumbass!

Yes, you read correctly! I’m a fabulous dumbass! Still fabulous though…I’m a happy dumbass. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not putting myself down at all. I’m proud for being a dumbass. By being a dumbass, I learn everyday, I human and that’s beautiful. See? I’m fabulous, happy, proud and beautiful! What more could I possibly want?

I do want something actually. I want to continue being happy, I want to provide a happy life for my daughter, I want to fulfill a few dreams I have this year. I just have that gut feeling that things are finally falling into place. After a huge storm, finally the sun comes through. And no, to answer a question I received from a reader, there is no special someone. That’s in the works *wink*. Ladies, if you un-squint your eyes, you’ll see how many offers are out there and some of them are actually worth your attention. Not all men are pigs! Some of them can be pretty nasty (so can women), but there are some really good people out there for those who have eyes to see.

I also received another question from a reader or a request – to talk about being a single parent. I will elaborate on that topic in the next post. This is just me acknowledging that request and yes I will tend to that subject as it is a very deep one. There are many women and men who are single parents and bloggers who talk about this. I guess people need to find one person that resonates with them. I know that was what I needed when I was pregnant. So yes, I will honor that on Tuesday’s post. Now thinking about it, one post it’s not enough to talk about that so maybe I should start some sort of a series – every Tuesday a single parenting post.

I’ve got a few more requests which thrills me. Makes me think I’m not just sending things into a giant void. I will tackle each and every one of them and some of them I will turn them into series since the topics are very broad.

So that’s pretty much it for this one. I know it’s short, I just felt like writing.

What The Holy Fuck???

Have you ever had that moment when you feel like knowing more about someone and you google their name not really expecting to find anything you didn’t already know and your jaw just drops???

Well – it just happened to me. I will not reveal the identity of that person. Lets just say he was – to some extent – a part of my life. I was just bored and thought about googling this guy’s name. I found stuff I already knew, but something felt a bit off. Maybe my gut instinct started acting up so I decided to google the nickname they use on social media and that’s when things got interesting.

It’s important to mention that this person is no longer part of my life. Still, finding out that this guy has been lying about his age disgusts me to the marrow. Other stuff is equally as important, but the age aspect is the most sickening part. Yes, you guessed right – he is much older than he claimed, MUCH older. Just to confirm I did a few reverse checks online, given the fact that I have quite some info on him, and everything seems to click. It’s hard not to jump to conclusions, I cannot say I’m 100% sure about everything but I’m 85% sure.

I guess he nerve thought I would actually check. No idea, my mind is still racing right now. At first, I wanted to confront him about everything, but I quickly changed my mind because it doesn’t really matter anymore. All I can say about this entire situation is that karma is a bitch and he will be hit at some point. Sooner or later I do un-squint my eyes and actually see what it is to see.

Ok, I’ll end this here because I don’t want to end up writing more than I set out to do. I’m not here to potentially ruin someone’s life. I just wanted to let it out. Be careful on the internet as you never know who’s on the other side of the screen…

Oh For The Love Of…

…everything holy!!!!!!

Am I on glue or the fucking MLMs are just getting crazier and crazier??????? I’m a part of a few Facebook groups and it’s absolutely unreal how people take advantage of the financial lack of others. Not to mention the fact that my inboxes are constantly flooded with messages and emails from random strangers promoting “hot businesses that GUARANTEE a care free lifestyle”. What’s even more crazy is that my Facebook messenger dings like there’s no tomorrow from messages random people send.

I actually took the time to talk to one yahoo who started the promoting process with trying to guilt me. YES!!!! Guilt me! He saw that I have a child and he started his message with something along the lines with: “Would you like to spend more time with your child AND make a 6 figure income??” I mean seriously??? Fucking seriously? And the proceeded to promote a line of skin care shit then asking me if I’m interested in investing and becoming his business partner. Are people THAT stupid????

I do affiliate marketing for a living and working on my own business so this offends me to the bone. I work from home and the WORK is real! It’s not easy to start a business when you are actually SERIOUS about it. Making an actual living from home means really investing primarily in YOURSELF and learn Internet Marketing, Advertising, spotting the target audience, understand the actual process of CPA, CPS and CPL just to name a few. Posting imbecilic ads on Facebook or other similar platforms and manipulating people will NOT get you 6 figures a month/week or whatever.

I don’t make 6 figures YET, but I do make a good living from this. It takes constant learning in order to develop marketing strategies to attract customers. It takes time and a lot of work to generate that passive income everyone is talking about. Creating an actual functioning, successful business takes time and effort and money. It’s not an overnight thing. That’s just plain common sense! It pisses me off to see people who actually want a better life for themselves be taken advantage of. Who wouldn’t want more money? Who doesn’t want a better life for their kids? Financial freedom is not created within seconds just like losing weight is not an overnight thing.

Do I consider myself successful? Yes, but not successful enough to actually be qualified to talk more about it or to recruit people. I will do that eventually, but not before I will actually be confident that I am equipped to do so.

The truth is that people will always seek quick fixes. That’s just a basic human instinct, I guess…

Shortcuts in life don’t work, people! Never have and never will!

Sometimes It Doesn’t Hurt…

…to be a little narcissistic.

Let’s face it! We have a pretty decent dose in us and there is nothing wrong with that. We all like to know we are loved. We all smile between our tears when someone has lost us and we all have people in our lives who are damn lucky to have met us.

It doesn’t hurt to remind ourselves, once in a while, of our worth. We live in a society filled with people ready to crush us every day – be it on a personal level or a professional level. I lost count how many times I’ve had doors slammed in my face or have been told “it’s impossible!”. I’ve lost count of how many people walked out of my life only to return at one point or another regretting the decision. The last one has happened every single time without exception. I’m not the greatest person in the world, but I do add value to a person’s life. I’m not perfect and God knows I’ve hurt people unintentionally, but when the line is drawn there was always more good than bad because I strive to make it that way. Guessing all of us do that.

So yes, as arrogant and narcissistic as it sounds, people who have met me and took the time to get to know me are lucky bastards. People who have walked away firstly thinking – “good riddance” – ended up returning to my life wanting back. How’s that for an ego boost?

So yes, looking at things from this perspective, helps me validate myself and there is nothing wrong with that. Society today has implemented in our minds that truly valuing ourselves is wrong. Now that’s a fucking lie!!!! I’ve wasted years of my life downgrading myself just to be socially accepted. Fuck that shit! Bitch, I’m fabulous! :))))

So, to conclude this, Here’s to he lucky bastards who’ve met me, spent time with me, lost me! Here’s to the ones who will eventually come back! I’m not holding my breath waiting – never have and never will! Cheers!

Another Fabulous Day

Today I’m writing to you from one of my favorite places in the world – Hamak. It’s located very close to the city where I live and it’s my little piece of heaven.

Whenever I want to find peace and quiet and great people – I come here. Food is great, the view is fantastic and combine this with having great friends and a great family – I could easily say that I am in heaven.

Thank you God for the people in my life! They are truly a blessing and I could never see myself without any of them. For the first time in what seems to be an eternity, I truly feel good about where my life is headed. Some decisions that seemed to be bad, turned out to be great in the end. I do have regrets like everyone – my previous relationship for example. That was a big mistake! Don’t regret knowing him, but regret the relationship itself – it nearly destroyed me, probably both of us, but it gave me the strength to move on and go after exactly what I want. I regret webcaming – bad decision but it turned out to be a great life lesson. Staying in a dead end relationship for 8 years – huuuugggeee mistake, but I have a daughter now so it was well worth it.

Writing this down and re-reading it gives me a whole new perspective. Bad decisions are only bad if the outcome is a worse version of ourselves. I am a better person because of the stupid mistakes I’ve made in my past. So here’s to mistakes and the lessons we learn from them! As for what life has in store – bring it on!

Warm And Fuzy

Ok so I skipped a day because I woke up dying of stomach cramps. By noon yesterday, I managed to straighten myself to a standing position and get my kid and myself dressed and I went to visit her Godparents.

Maria, the Godmother, wanted to host a lunch at her place with her family and she pretty much emotionally blackmailed me into coming. She did the right thing!!! Waking up feeling like shit didn’t have to dictate the rest of my day.

I must say it was a very enjoyable afternoon. They are a simple family, with simple people. What I love about them is their capability to make anyone feel extremely welcome and like your presence matters with them. They have such a warmth about them it’s unreal. Me and Maria have been friends for about 8 years. We met in college and became friends from day 1. Our dream was for us to officially become family and 2018 was the year when that was possible. She did me the extraordinary honor of baptizing my child and, for that, I’ll be eternally grateful.

She is the only person who can restore my faith in humanity by just breathing. There are very few genuinely good people I’ve had the chance to meet in this lifetime and, thank God, I managed to make them my friends. She accepted me in a way only my parents did. I should introduce her to everyone. She can finds the best in everything, focuses on that and brings it out. She’s been there for me in many rock-bottom moments in my life and knew exactly what to tell me to pick myself up and keep pushing forward. I’ve learned a lot from her throughout the years and I truly look up to her.

So my afternoon was filled with food (thank God lol), laughter, watching the kids play and genuine quality time. Everyone needs a Maria in their lives.

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3 Major Lessons I’ve Learned From Becoming A Mother

2018 was the year I became a mother. I was far from being ready to be a parent, but, nevertheless, I am really happy.

Motherhood, up until now has taught me many lessons about myself, about life, about how things actually work in this world. It would take me a month of night to write down all of them so I narrowed it down to 3 major lessons. So here it goes.

1. LIFE LONG COMMITMENT

Being a parent is not a on and off relationship, it doesn’t have an OFF button, you do not get a break from it. Being a parent is a permanent thing – that child is yours for life. You cannot break up with your child or divorce your child. For all you single parents out there – I know what you are thinking. Indeed there are a lot of genetic contributors who bail on their kids without looking back. It happened to me. I’m not talking to those people now. I’m talking to those who understand what having a child is, who – despite the hardships and challenges – fight for their children. You guys know this – the child is yours even if it’s not always about dancing on tulips. You may not always like your child. Kids can be a handful some days. God knows I don’t always like my child – she can drive me nuts. Does that make me a bad mother? Hell no! It makes me a normal mother. Even in the days I don’t like her, I do love her more than words and that drives me to push through the hard times. So yes – being a parent is a life long commitment

2. YOU DON’T KNOW SHIT

I don’t care if you do babysitting for a living. When you have your own child, the first thing you realize is that – you don’t know shit. It’s like when you read and study really hard for a very important exam, but – when the day comes – you feel like you are totally unprepared. Depending on the kind of person you are – this can make you or break you.

When I was pregnant, I thought I got this motherhood thing down to the very last letter. I watched videos, I read tons of books on parenting. I really did think that I was prepared to face it and pass with flying colors. I even fantasized about it. My fantasy kid was perfect, non-crying, great sleeper, predictable, non-tantrum throwing. My fantasy kid would never poop so hard that it would shoot out from the back of the diaper into her hair. She would never pee on me. She would be very independent from the start so I did have time to work and keep the income flowing regularly. Perfect little angel! The second I gave birth I found out very different. Was it a shock? Yes and no! Yes because I really thought I knew what I was doing and no because that’s just how life is.

So…going back to the MTV Diary’s light-motif – You think you know, but you have no idea!

3. TRUE, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

Throughout out lives – we experience love in many different ways which kind of gives us an idea of what love is. Going back to number 2 – you don’t know shit! The love you feel when you first see your child is so big that it’s overwhelming. It’s a palette of emotions that put a hold on your heart like nothing else. It’s a true and unconditional love. No matter what your child will do – the love will be the same if not even bigger. It’s a love that only grows and never dies. It’s a love that goes beyond you heart and mind and body. It even goes beyond death. It’s a love that can sometimes make your other experiences with love seem superficial.

The first thing I realized after I gave birth was that all the other people in my life are disposable. Sounds bad, I know! Think of it this way – you can love your spouse/boyfriend/friends/brothers/sisters/parents etc. but would you ever choose them over your own child? My guess the answer is a resounding NO! Thus proving my point!

When it comes to your own child – love truly is enough.

So there you go, my friends! These are the 3 major lessons I’ve learned from being a parent. It’s the best journey of my life and I can firmly say – I’M HAPPY!

 

 

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